i love my sensitive boy

dylan watched "land before time" today during his rest time in bed. i let him watch it in mom and dad's room, so he laid on the bed while i continued our vacation search on the computer. i love that movie! it was the first one i saw in the theatre when i was little, with my mom. when he notices someone dying or hurt, he often asks if they are going to be with jesus, because that's what he knows about aunt lisa. that she's in heaven with jesus. so he commented often in the movie about the dinosaur that dies and kept mentioning how the baby was sad cause his mommy was in heaven.

well the movie got done and dylan and i were playing thomas trains. i mention the next three things in order...he had to get up to go potty, so he went and as he's standing going, he says. mom, we need to clean this soon (meaning the toilet) - which i will tell you has been cleaned recently :), but i found myself laughing at his choice of words. he sits back down to play with me and begins to talk again about how sad the baby dinosaur was that his mommy had to go up to heaven to be with jesus (and he's starting to seriously tear up). i agreed and he says, he went to heaven just like daddy..i responded, no dylan, daddy isn't in heaven. lisa is in heaven with jesus..and he says (now crying softly) "oh yah, that's right mom, she's with jesus, that makes me so sad" ....AND i lose it! and he immediately gets concerned and says "its ok mom, its ok....you sad?" i said yes, that makes me sad too. i quickly pull myself together and he continues "its ok mommy...you keep your pants dry?" (and i bust out laughing) you have to understand we've been really praising him for doing so well with the potty, so he talks like that a lot when he wakes from his nap dry....oh the laughter and the tears this afternoon...i'm so grateful to have shared that moment with him tho. not that i want him sad, but that i want her to be missed by him..i want her to have meant something in his life, and i'm grateful that he remembers and that God has given him a sensitive heart.

ok, i'm off to build a tent with blankets and play cars in it!